Goodbye 2019 You've been our Hardest Year yet.
2019 has been a year of love yet troubles and a year of fun yet hardship. It's been one of the hardest years of my life so far. So much happened that was out of my control and impossible to fix. We've had unexpected changes in careers which led to a shuffle in finances, teenagers acting up and a huge family fall out that's let us a member short here.
My daughter, now 17, fell in with the 'wrong crowd' which is every mothers nightmare. Times were hard and things got difficult, almost impossible in the end. Choices were made in her best interest and now, my child no longer lives with me which is absolutely heart breaking. She needed a fresh start, a chance, away from here to put herself back together and find her own way. She now lives with her Dad who's taking care of her. I know she is safe and doing well but I miss her so much. Christmas hasn't been the same this year without her but I've tried my best to keep it happy for my younger children, as they're completely unaware of what's been happening around them and I hope to keep it that way for as long as I can.
For now I just have to keep going as best I can. Sadly life goes on and even though only two of my children are here at home with me right now. I am the Mother of 3 beautiful children and I absolutely adore them all. Life changes and they grow up fast, and things happen in life that we may not expect or want to happen. Things that are out of our control and beyond us but life goes on and will continue to do so whether we are ready for it or not. That's life!
2019 you have been tough. You have been hard. You have been testing.
2019 I am so relieved that you're almost over. 2020 is going to be our year. 2020 is going to be better. 2020 is feeling hopeful and fresh and new for us. It's got to be better surely?
2020 will see my first born turn 18, my 2nd daughter turn 13 into a teenager and my youngest turn 10 into double figures. 2020 will see me turn 38, almost 40 - eek, and will hopefully find me a new career. 2020 will be the year that I marry the love of my life and have the biggest celebration that we can afford to bring a little joy to our families in this time of uncertainty and troubles. I'm hoping that 2020 is a year to look forward too.
I hope you've all had a Merry Christmas and have a Wonderful New Year!
Thank you all for staying with me in 2019 and I hope to see you still in 2020.
From all of us here at Mummy Of 3 Dairies - Thank You x